Back in High school my periods started normal at the age of eleven, however I started to get poorly a lot. I'd be away from school a lot with regular bugs, I suffered with chronic fatigue and I struggled a lot with chronic stomach pains I was passed around from the school nurse, to doctors, to consultants, to CAHMS, yet no one knew what the problem was. After a while I got fobbed off with hating school and just not wanting to attend and was told I was faking being ill to skip school. Eventually the amount of time from school affected my life, my grades suffered and my social and emotional well being got affected. I was always an outsider at school because I missed that exciting moment everyone was talking about, or I wasn't there so I wouldn't understand or I missed that lesson so there is no point working with you. It was a never ending circle, The school well being officer was always round with her fines, the school nurse getting in contact with my Doctor, the Doctor referring me to CAMHS because it was all in my head.

As I left school I continued to suffer how I already had. I went on to study at college, when I was rushed in to theater with what they thought was ruptured appendicitis, however it turned out that my appendix was full of endometriosis

This is when I thought I would finally have answers and get the treatment I waited so long for. Going back to my Gp after recovery I was looking for a long term solution, some help. However I was no better off because my Gp told me my Endometriosis was removed in surgery and I was now cured, so any pains I still got were all in my head and not real. I knew something wasn't right (you know your own body) I pushed and pushed for more answers and for more people to listen to me. Finally in 2016 a private surgeon took me on and I underwent a laparoscopy, this is where I finally got my diagnosis. Along with lots of adhesion's, endometriosis was finally confirmed. A few months later my pains came back quite severe and my surgeon decided removing the ovary would be the best decision, so i was put on a waiting list. Whilst I waited for the date to approach my surgeon tried Prostap injections.

​Prostap- medical menopause injection that stops the ovaries from working-
​The injection came with some horrible side affects, but finally I could manage the pain!
I took a risk by accepting this treatment as suffering from depression it isn't adviced. But if you never take a risk, you'll never know how perfectly things may work out.
🎗️A huge lump. Because of how much medicine in the injection, it has to slowly be given, with so many mls and then massage the treatment. The treatment sits as a lump for a couple of weeks before slowly working in to the blood. 🎗️Headaches 🎗️Muscle pain
🎗️Hot flushes🎗️fatigue- some days I could only be awake for three to fives hours!🎗️Sickness
🎗️Mood change🎗️Hair loss

​The injection was hard at the age of 20, but the pain levels were the lowest they have ever been.
After nine months of waiting and two cancellations on Wednesday (23rd august 2017). I finally went in for an ovary removal! The operation ended up being eight hours and I've never suffered pain like it! It turned out the operation didn't go as planned. My surgeon made the decision for me to do a partial hysterectomy as he found a tumour the size of a golf ball between my Fallopian tube and ovary 

When the surgeon first told me that I had endometriosis not appendicitis, I had never heard of this word, I couldn't even say it never mind understand it. I took to google to try and understand this frightening word and to see what the future held for me.

The reason I blog is to help stop ladies from feeling as scared, alone and confused as I did.

Surgery didn't really improve my endometriosis and I still continued to suffer. I had surgery after surgery, excisions on the endo. 
In 2019 I had endometriosis removed from my bladder, unfortunately my bladder became paralysed. I began using a catheter, whilst trying every option possible to get my bladder working again. Botox, bladder therapy, acupuncture, injections, but option after option they all just failed. 
My consultant referred me to a specialist. My pain became so intense, the wait for surgery was three years, my mental health suffered so much. Some days my pain was so severe, I didn't want to be here. I couldn't imagine living every day in such severe pain. 
I finally got a surgery date and an appointment with the best pain specialist and then my whole world was ripped apart.